A couple of days ago I woke up and my the news is on.
In the state of California Proposition 22- Marriage should only be between a man and a woman. The high court overturned that proposition so technically for now gay marriage is legal in the state of California which makes it the second state in the US to legalize gay marriage. The first one is Massachusetts.
Some hope that there is going to be a ‘rippling’ effect and other states will pick up on the gay marriage thing.

I saw a lot of happy homosexuals proposing to their love ones in the news. I think they shouldn’t jump into marriage quite yet because there still going to be a vote to keep this permanent or not in November.

According to a conservative group they already have 1.5 million signatures against gay marriage rights and return marriage between a man and woman exclusively in the state of California.

What I think? I’m not a big marriage fan at all, gay or hetero. I don’t understand it why someone needs to get married but maybe I think that way because I’m still young. If I was more coked up I’d start an against marriage (period!) rally!

I think it’s funny how these conservatives think two people getting married who just so happen to have the same genitals are going to ruin their lives.

Sounds familiar? About 40 years ago interracial marriage was illegal in Virginia and people thought the same thing.
“It’s against the will of God”
“It’s unnatural”
Maybe 40 years from now gay marriage will be viewed like interracial marriage is now, mostly not a big deal. So exciting to be part of history. It would make an interesting story to tell your grandchildren.

I don’t mind other’s opinions on topics like because I’m really open and don’t mind whatever you might believe.

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In other news I’ve been invited to play the Hello Kitty MMO which is currently in closed beta right now. I know Hello Kitty has nothing to do with politics and history and I’m secretly convince she’s evil but I’m attracted to evil things.

When you look at younger siblings or relatives even though they are a couple years younger than you, do you ever get the feeling that they have it easier that you did?

I remember my grandmother calling me a retard because I didn’t know how to read at the age of four. She would compare me to my older brother who was a genius at that age and said I would never get to any good private school. She seemed to love verbally putting me down.

When my grandparents jewelry got stolen and their business went down the drain I considered that karma and God was on my side.

When I was five I was staying with my aunt in the mountains and I got sick . I didn’t know what was happening to me all I knew I wasn’t feeling well. I felt really hot even though it was cold. My aunt refused to treat me, I was asking for ice because I was sweating hot and my aunt thought I was being maarte (bitchy).Two days later I found out it was a fever and a toothache. My aunt blamed it on me.
“I’m never going to take you anywhere again. Why you got sick?”
It’s not my fault bitch I was five and it was fricken cold.

By the time I was seven people where telling me to grow up.
“Your a lady now you have to act like an adult”
“You can’t have dolls anymore because your big”
“Why don’t you wear make-up or something?”
“Your not a kid anymore”
“You want to go to the toy store? Wouldn’t you be embarrassed Your so old” I’m seven! WTF?!

People wonder why I’m sometimes bitter and grumpy. That’s why. I feel like a kid but everyone is always reminding me I’m an adult. So what do adults do? Suck dick? I think I’ll go suck dick right now.

I look at my younger cousin who are like 5, 7, 9 and the same family members who treated me like crap treat them like babies!I must’ve been an ugly kid or something. I’m going to do something adult like suck dick or get knocked up now. bye.

This is a follow up on my last post about the advertisement that a group of white males wanted to post in their school news paper.

The history books should be rewritten because the holocaust never happened.
Why minorities and women get special treatment.
Why doesn’t science acknowledge that being gay is actually a mental disease.

I was thinking about the Iranian president Mahmoud Ahmadinejad when he came to Columbia University. There was a large group protesting his arrival. Which I think is stupid because no matter how narrow-minded we think a persons beliefs are doesn’t mean we should shut their voice. Maybe it didn’t help that he has doubts of the events that occurred during the holocausts . They can’t change what we know to be true or false. So I was wondering why people were bitching.

During the conference he stated something along the lines of ‘ you have gay people in this country but we don’t have them in Iran’ well technically there was some sort of translation error. There are Homosexuals in Iran but they are executed publicly.

When my teacher from my mascom class asked Would You Run The Ad. Many people agreed that they would run the advertisement but would write an editorial in the news paper perhaps on what they know about this group.

The head of the University should check up on those students who wanted to post that advertisement. It could have been open forum where others could share their ideas? It could be a good debate and they would have to change the format to add a little more information. Did anyone think of that? . If it’s some sort of white supremacist group then action should be taken. That’s what I think.

Site news: I uploaded the Cold Case “Boy Crazy” Episode in streaming form. It’s the one about the murder of a young girl that looked and acted like a boy(read this post for more information). It isn’t graphic but it’s very heart-breaking especially the last ten minutes of the episode. A lot of people realized that there was nothing wrong with her but it was already too late. *sniff*
It’s HD quality so it’s better if you watch it on large screen, double click. Also looks better on firefox but is ok on internet explorer. Watch video here.

On to the topic….

It’s a very short post and you might’ve been comforted with this question before in school.

If you run a school newspaper and this group of mainly white males wanted to post an advertisement that they wanted a discussing on the following topics.

The history books should be rewritten because the holocaust never happened.
Why minorities and women get special treatment.
Why doesn’t science talk about the seriously important things, like being gay is actually a mental disease.

Would you run that ad? Think about the first ammendment and freedom of speech.

I and I guess everyone else already knows that it’s bad to hold your emotions. But who knew I would be a physical example.

I learned to hold my emotions since a very young age when I didn’t get my way. I use to get pissed yell and scream and have tantrums but adults would just ignore me and leave me on the floor. I guess I learned that nothing would happen if I would yell out so I just kept things to myself.

I didn’t know how to react when my classmates would tease me back in high school so usually I would say nothing. And there was my bestfriend who I just let get away with treating me like shit for four years.

There was an incident a week ago. I was on the computer and my brother was bugging me. I was super pissed and stressed about the upcoming exam that I started huffing and puffing (hyperventilating according to the doctor ) when I put my head up my chest suddenly felt heavy and tight. I started to panic and yelled for my mom. I was crying because I didn’t know what was happening Then I felt really light headed and my body felt really stiff. I couldn’t move my fingers.

My uncle started messaging my back and head. My mom got me some water. After about five minutes I started breathing again but my arms and jaw were still quite stiff. When my dad came home that night he set up a doctors appointment.

Today was my doctors appointment. He said it was sever stress agitation due to emotions or something like that (he used those words). He even joked that I must of been really mad and I shouldn’t be mad because it’s my birthday tomorrow. What happen to me according to the doctor brought back past emotions of frustration and anger. ‘Bottled-up emotions isn’t good for the body’ is what he said. And suggested that I try to talk or something if I feel that way again.

They took a blood sample. Took like ten minutes because I kept squirming around (hate needles) and screaming. Also a urine sample. I notice my piss is like a million times darker that everyone else’s piss…I wonder why. I don’t know the results of it yet though.

Have a great weekend everybody!