Never Hold In Your Emotions
I and I guess everyone else already knows that it’s bad to hold your emotions. But who knew I would be a physical example.
I learned to hold my emotions since a very young age when I didn’t get my way. I use to get pissed yell and scream and have tantrums but adults would just ignore me and leave me on the floor. I guess I learned that nothing would happen if I would yell out so I just kept things to myself.
I didn’t know how to react when my classmates would tease me back in high school so usually I would say nothing. And there was my bestfriend who I just let get away with treating me like shit for four years.
There was an incident a week ago. I was on the computer and my brother was bugging me. I was super pissed and stressed about the upcoming exam that I started huffing and puffing (hyperventilating according to the doctor ) when I put my head up my chest suddenly felt heavy and tight. I started to panic and yelled for my mom. I was crying because I didn’t know what was happening Then I felt really light headed and my body felt really stiff. I couldn’t move my fingers.
My uncle started messaging my back and head. My mom got me some water. After about five minutes I started breathing again but my arms and jaw were still quite stiff. When my dad came home that night he set up a doctors appointment.
Today was my doctors appointment. He said it was sever stress agitation due to emotions or something like that (he used those words). He even joked that I must of been really mad and I shouldn’t be mad because it’s my birthday tomorrow. What happen to me according to the doctor brought back past emotions of frustration and anger. ‘Bottled-up emotions isn’t good for the body’ is what he said. And suggested that I try to talk or something if I feel that way again.
They took a blood sample. Took like ten minutes because I kept squirming around (hate needles) and screaming. Also a urine sample. I notice my piss is like a million times darker that everyone else’s piss…I wonder why. I don’t know the results of it yet though.
Have a great weekend everybody!
Darker pee means that you aren’t drinking enough water and you need to take in more water. [Something I learned from those military doctors, LOL.]
No, I’ll agree, don’t bottle up your emotions! Not to sound weird, but you should let out your stress when you feel like that… go exercising / running, cry, something like that that’s productive rather than just sit there and take it.
I hate blood samples personally, but I got two blood samples done in about a minute and I kept myself busy by talking to the nurse about an article on global warming. Maybe you could try doing that? I hate shots and that kind of thing myself, but keeping yourself busy by reading is a really great help. I hate needles and sharp objects myself, haha…
I think it is really not good.
It might blow up when it gets full XD
yeah. bottled-up emotions would actually make you feel stress. but i also agree with cynthia. you could go and do other things that would make you busy and let your bottled emotions fly from you. running is the best way.
I have been holding in my emotions for quite a long time now, guess what, i dont cry. Yep, and every time Im on the verge of crying I hold it as long as I can and I hideaway somewhere so nobody can see.
That sounds quite awful but I know it’s possible to have health problems due to stress, I’ve had them myself - Although not quite as severe as yours. Also, dark urine is a sign of dehydration usually, so try drinking more water and juices if you don’t already. I hate needles too by the way - It’s why I cannot get my ears pierced for the life of me.
I’ve been hyperventilating (regularly) since I was 13 years old and I never panicked. It’s not that scary when you know what it is, but even when I didn’t I didn’t panic. I guess people are different. My brother hyperventilates as well and he panics. Bottling up your emotions isn’t good, but if you’re unable to express them or something, write them down. I got a “diary” a few months ago and I only write my emotions of that day in it. If I felt angry that day, I’d write I was angry in a certain situation (and obviously describe the situation) and it really helps, because if you’re unable to express your emotions towards other or if you can’t talk about it to anyone, you could always write it down. Your pee is dark? Do you drink enough water every day? When they take a blood sample, maybe you should try to get some distraction. Think about something else, TALK about the weather, I don’t know. Just do something that doesn’t remind you of the needles.
Good luck!
I know that keeping emotions close to yourself is really bad, but I never thought it would be PHYSICALLY bad… I just thought it amounted to suiciding and stuff.
Oh my god, that incident sounds so… freaky. Unreal. Fantasy. Hope you’re okay (:
oh my, i hope you’re ok now… i also have hyperventilation syndrome and anxiety attacks because of sucking it all in. i hope there will still be hope for the both of us! haha. take care, ok?
Happy Birthday!
That must have been very scary, I hope the doctor can help you sort it out. Take care.
I totally agree with your doc !;)
Hey exene, I hope you have a nice weekend down there! tc!
Yeah I heard that not drinking enough water, or taking in good foods will make your urine really dark and have a strong smell.
I’m sorry that happened! Seems like you’re pretty good at expressing yourself though, and you’ll do it more often?
P.S. Gosh I love you for having the comment form first!
I’m like that too, I always bottle up my emotions, and I rarely ever tell anybody how I’m feeling. The internet is the only place where I can fully rant about stuff that bothers me. But I know I should talk to other people about it too. Dark urine means that you need to drink more fluids, you’re probably not getting your 2 litres of water a day.
I bottle up my emotions all the time, but I don’t really let things bother me anyways so it doesn’t affect me too badly (it did when I was younger though; I had some kind of breakdown or something one day and I just started screaming and crying and banging my head and my hands off my computer and stuff, it was bad)
But if you ever are holding in emotions, you should just blog about them. I like reading personal blogs, and I’m sure it will help you (and it’s easier to let out your emotions on the computer rather than in person, I think anyways, so that could be helpful)
And your pee is darker if you’re not hydrated enough. Though my pee is normal color and I like never drink anything, haha…
i can never hold my emotions in. i dont know why .. but i think its just who i am. i get this really really bad .. umm .. what’s the word? i cant describe it but its close to “aura” i guess? but yeah i just feel like shit. yeah thats the word to describe it. i feel like shit whenever i hold my emotions in, so i always have to let it out.
hope its nothing serious. hope you feel better soon
and belated happy bday for yesterday (:
you need to drink a lot of water… at least 8 glasses a day
i hope you don’t have a UTI
about the bottled emotions, i never bottle my emotions inside. when i feel like yelling because i’m mad, i’ll do it. and i am not a patient person so i really erupt when i’m mad!
i hope your condition is not worse and i hope you do not have UTI (urinary tract infection).
Wow, that would be a rather scary thing to happen, I can understand trying to repress lots of emotion like that would have negative effects though
I hate blood tests too
heh, ’so, my piss is darker than others… have a great weekend!’
don’t worry, i’m sure everyone has urine of varying colors. i’m really sorry to hear about what happened though, but i am glad to hear that you went to the doctor’s. nine out of ten times i avoided going to see the doctor, but they really do help. i’m sure what you have isn’t very serious - worse things can happen - but at least you know to talk it out. it really does help though… complaining keeps me from going crazy on people, it really does.
Aww, I hope you’re okay! Keeping things bottled up inside can cause spontaneous a combustion every once in a while… I have difficulty getting emotions out, too.
I hope you were able to enjoy your birthday!
You hate homophobes? I like you already!
I can relate to what you wrote, I was the NR Queen in high school.. I bordered on being weird. I did it for a lot of reasons, but in the end I knew it wasn’t good for me. I went out of my shell in college and I find that I like myself more when I’m able to express how I feel.
Anyway, it’s probably good to follow the doctor’s advice. Take baby steps, if need be. You’d probably want to avoid any more psychogenic symptoms.
thanks for commenting back
what happened to you was really freaky. my friend always hyperventilates and we panic every time. I hope you get well soon. And yeah, it’s a really good thing to vent out your feelings. Find someone you can trust.
BTW, I’ve been updating my blog regularly lately, unfortunately when I got the chance, hype and mood to be blogging again, something happened to our server I think. All of my posts for november got erased.
I too keep emotions to myself. Sometimes I don’t even know how to express myself because I’ve been keeping thoughts to myself for so long. I had a breakdown sometime a few months ago at college. I just couldn’t take it anymore. My GPA was less than mediocre from first semester and I knew I wasn’t doing well with most of my classes. I wanted someone to talk to but every time I tried, I start crying. I’m doing much better now though. I guess I just didn’t know how to deal with so much stress from academics and clubs I’d joined.
I think you need to drink more water if your piss is dark. I too need to drink more water though. You’re supposed to drink 8 glasses of water a day and I drink much less than that. I do hope you get well soon and relieve your stress by talking to those you love and trust.
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